Brynlee Marie part II
From the previous blog you can understand how emotional I was during this entire pregnancy.
Side note. I had to see an allergist this pregnancy from a reaction at the dentist. Learned I'm allergic to some preservatives in medications and anesthetics. Which explained my reactions to an epidural I had a previous labor.
So my cnp recommended with my emotional state plus having to go natural I needed to seek a doula. A what? I thought. So off I went to do research. Luckily my aunt had a friend who was a doula and put me in touch with her. We talked and she gave me helpful advice about what questions to ask and assured me this was something I could do.
I think I was 20ish weeks at this point. My main concern was just making it full term.
I was having no luck finding any doula Searching the web. So for some reason I get a nudge to search on Craigslist. Why not I thought. That's where I found Felicia.
I emailed her and she was quick to respond. I was sooo nervous. We set up a meeting for a couple weeks later. I take this time to put together my question list and make sure my mom and mil could attend. Since I was emotional and wanted to get other opinions.
She came over. She wasn't what I imagined at all. In my head I had a very much older lady with fringe and baggy clothes. Maybe some Indian jewelry. I know lol totally horrible I pictured a hippie. But FeliCa was petite and pretty.
I got straight to business by telling her about my previous births because I felt that was important. Then I made through my list and birth plan. She asked if I was sure I didn't want a home birth. Inside I screamed NO. but i said something along the lines of I'm worried about the complications of the hematoma. Which was true. I had a higher chance of hemrage and placenta something. (It getting stuck inside) so I stayed the course.
Couple weeks later I started having regular every 2 minute contractions for several hrs. Went to the hospital lots of threatening dead baby cards and lots of other nonsense. Horrible experience agreed to a lot of things I shouldn't of left feeling defeated. This was the changing moment. The moment I started questioning everything! The moment I took my care and body into my own hands. Never again would I allow anyone to treat me this way.
I didn't seek advice or go into the hospital again until I was 6cm dilated and in labor. I was having good irregular contractions for about 3 weeks prior until I finally went into active labor.
4:30 am. Aric gets up for work. I'm angry at him for waking me up! He leaves around 5 I get up to pee and that's when the first ctx hit. Whatever I thought. Got back in bed a snuggled with tori. Another hit. Wow that was a good one. Then another and another. Thought maybe I should time these. So I get my app and start timing. 4 minutes lasting 60 seconds or more. So then after about 30 minutes I get up and go to the kitchen. They kept coming and coming. I was breathing good and swaying my hips. A whole hr passes. This is the real deal I could just feel it.
Tried calling my mom about 5x no answer. I'm freaking out. Call my mil several times Aric several times. NO ONE IS PICKING UP. I was panicking. I can't have a baby in my kitchen alone with 2 other babies! So I call Felicia around 6:30. She's close so she came over. Still couldn't get ahold of anyone. I'm shaking and nervous since I'm 5 days early and I fully expected to go a week late! I wasn't mentally ready yet.
Felicia gets there and checks me. 6 cn! What!! No way! I'm not even in pain! Wow I totally got this. Somewhere in between that I got ahold of my mom and she's on her way to get the girls ready. Then I get a hold of Aric by calling his work! Stupid boy forgot his phone knowing his wife was 39 weeks pregnant. Lol. Still won't let him live it down.
We decided to go ahead and go into the hospital. Making sure I didn't arrive before 8am. Since a horrible doc was on call!
We pull in at 8am. Woot woot my prayers were answered. I get triaged and yep 6 cm. now my brood is starting to pile in. Aric ended up beating us to the hospital lol. Get in my l&d room. Where the fun begins. NOT!
Fought about an Iv. Fought about monitors. Told me if I wanted to birth this way I should of went to Miami valley. Well I'm here not there! Agreed to a block and monitoring every hr. whatever! Start in the monitor then got up and did stairs. The pain was starting to intensify. I was working through it great. Swaying my hips and breathing well. I wanted a shower so after crap monitoring I got to take one. It didn't help but oh well. More monitoring. They start saying oh some heart decels. You mean when she dropped of the monitor because I was rocking through a ctx? Could be but just need to make sure. So much crap and attitude from them.
I get checked around 1 still 6. And nurse asking to break my waters? NO! I blurted. I remember Felicia saying we needed to get up. We start doing lots of different things. Pain got more intense. I was starting to have some trouble coping. 2 rolls around I get checked again I'm 9 and then I hear oops your water broke. I was so angry!
That's when everything went to pot the next 45 minutes were horrible!!! The ob who would be delivering came in to check. She said your 9 with a sliver of cervix. If you push with this next ctx ill push it back. Ok we tried. I screamed in agony! It was so painful. This is when I started losing it. I grabbed her hand and ripped it out of me and told her don't touch me again! She takes her gloves off and says call me when your ready!
I couldn't move. It took about 5 minutes of mom and Felicia talking me into changing positions to get complete. I just couldn't do it. It hurt so bad. Finally I flip over headed up sticking my bum in the air for about 1 minutes. Mom says it was the weirdest thing ever. But it worked. I quickly whipped back around and said I needed to push. Felicia went out to get the nurse. They all run in flip lights on start yelling ob is in surgery you have to wait. EXCUSE ME? This baby is coming!
Decided they would call the other ob who is home. Said it will take 5 minutes. I'm in a weird sideways postion on the bed. Nurse staff yelling at me from every direction. Felicia one on one with me calmly and softly push with your body push with your body. Nurses yelling don't push. FeliCa warning Aric be ready to catch. Then more nurses yelling we can't deliver this baby.
Then dr Patel runs in only has time to slap a pair of gloves on. Says snarky like. Guess we are delivering like this. I'm screaming head comes out dr. Catches babies out. Water splashing all over the floor. Chaos everywhere!
It was the craziest 45 minutes of my life! Birthed placenta. I had a valamentous cord insertion. You could see where the hematoma was also. I got to cut the cord. Then we found out she was 9lbs 4 oz!! What?! 5 days early lol. Then FeliCa gets yelled at. Ill let her explain that. Like I said Lots of crazy stuff. My heart is pounding right now. Still very tramatic for me. This puts me right back there.
All I have to say now is thank you cmh. For making my decision of home birth that much easier!
Side note. I had to see an allergist this pregnancy from a reaction at the dentist. Learned I'm allergic to some preservatives in medications and anesthetics. Which explained my reactions to an epidural I had a previous labor.
So my cnp recommended with my emotional state plus having to go natural I needed to seek a doula. A what? I thought. So off I went to do research. Luckily my aunt had a friend who was a doula and put me in touch with her. We talked and she gave me helpful advice about what questions to ask and assured me this was something I could do.
I think I was 20ish weeks at this point. My main concern was just making it full term.
I was having no luck finding any doula Searching the web. So for some reason I get a nudge to search on Craigslist. Why not I thought. That's where I found Felicia.
I emailed her and she was quick to respond. I was sooo nervous. We set up a meeting for a couple weeks later. I take this time to put together my question list and make sure my mom and mil could attend. Since I was emotional and wanted to get other opinions.
She came over. She wasn't what I imagined at all. In my head I had a very much older lady with fringe and baggy clothes. Maybe some Indian jewelry. I know lol totally horrible I pictured a hippie. But FeliCa was petite and pretty.
I got straight to business by telling her about my previous births because I felt that was important. Then I made through my list and birth plan. She asked if I was sure I didn't want a home birth. Inside I screamed NO. but i said something along the lines of I'm worried about the complications of the hematoma. Which was true. I had a higher chance of hemrage and placenta something. (It getting stuck inside) so I stayed the course.
Couple weeks later I started having regular every 2 minute contractions for several hrs. Went to the hospital lots of threatening dead baby cards and lots of other nonsense. Horrible experience agreed to a lot of things I shouldn't of left feeling defeated. This was the changing moment. The moment I started questioning everything! The moment I took my care and body into my own hands. Never again would I allow anyone to treat me this way.
I didn't seek advice or go into the hospital again until I was 6cm dilated and in labor. I was having good irregular contractions for about 3 weeks prior until I finally went into active labor.
4:30 am. Aric gets up for work. I'm angry at him for waking me up! He leaves around 5 I get up to pee and that's when the first ctx hit. Whatever I thought. Got back in bed a snuggled with tori. Another hit. Wow that was a good one. Then another and another. Thought maybe I should time these. So I get my app and start timing. 4 minutes lasting 60 seconds or more. So then after about 30 minutes I get up and go to the kitchen. They kept coming and coming. I was breathing good and swaying my hips. A whole hr passes. This is the real deal I could just feel it.
Tried calling my mom about 5x no answer. I'm freaking out. Call my mil several times Aric several times. NO ONE IS PICKING UP. I was panicking. I can't have a baby in my kitchen alone with 2 other babies! So I call Felicia around 6:30. She's close so she came over. Still couldn't get ahold of anyone. I'm shaking and nervous since I'm 5 days early and I fully expected to go a week late! I wasn't mentally ready yet.
Felicia gets there and checks me. 6 cn! What!! No way! I'm not even in pain! Wow I totally got this. Somewhere in between that I got ahold of my mom and she's on her way to get the girls ready. Then I get a hold of Aric by calling his work! Stupid boy forgot his phone knowing his wife was 39 weeks pregnant. Lol. Still won't let him live it down.
We decided to go ahead and go into the hospital. Making sure I didn't arrive before 8am. Since a horrible doc was on call!
We pull in at 8am. Woot woot my prayers were answered. I get triaged and yep 6 cm. now my brood is starting to pile in. Aric ended up beating us to the hospital lol. Get in my l&d room. Where the fun begins. NOT!
Fought about an Iv. Fought about monitors. Told me if I wanted to birth this way I should of went to Miami valley. Well I'm here not there! Agreed to a block and monitoring every hr. whatever! Start in the monitor then got up and did stairs. The pain was starting to intensify. I was working through it great. Swaying my hips and breathing well. I wanted a shower so after crap monitoring I got to take one. It didn't help but oh well. More monitoring. They start saying oh some heart decels. You mean when she dropped of the monitor because I was rocking through a ctx? Could be but just need to make sure. So much crap and attitude from them.
I get checked around 1 still 6. And nurse asking to break my waters? NO! I blurted. I remember Felicia saying we needed to get up. We start doing lots of different things. Pain got more intense. I was starting to have some trouble coping. 2 rolls around I get checked again I'm 9 and then I hear oops your water broke. I was so angry!
That's when everything went to pot the next 45 minutes were horrible!!! The ob who would be delivering came in to check. She said your 9 with a sliver of cervix. If you push with this next ctx ill push it back. Ok we tried. I screamed in agony! It was so painful. This is when I started losing it. I grabbed her hand and ripped it out of me and told her don't touch me again! She takes her gloves off and says call me when your ready!
I couldn't move. It took about 5 minutes of mom and Felicia talking me into changing positions to get complete. I just couldn't do it. It hurt so bad. Finally I flip over headed up sticking my bum in the air for about 1 minutes. Mom says it was the weirdest thing ever. But it worked. I quickly whipped back around and said I needed to push. Felicia went out to get the nurse. They all run in flip lights on start yelling ob is in surgery you have to wait. EXCUSE ME? This baby is coming!
Decided they would call the other ob who is home. Said it will take 5 minutes. I'm in a weird sideways postion on the bed. Nurse staff yelling at me from every direction. Felicia one on one with me calmly and softly push with your body push with your body. Nurses yelling don't push. FeliCa warning Aric be ready to catch. Then more nurses yelling we can't deliver this baby.
Then dr Patel runs in only has time to slap a pair of gloves on. Says snarky like. Guess we are delivering like this. I'm screaming head comes out dr. Catches babies out. Water splashing all over the floor. Chaos everywhere!
It was the craziest 45 minutes of my life! Birthed placenta. I had a valamentous cord insertion. You could see where the hematoma was also. I got to cut the cord. Then we found out she was 9lbs 4 oz!! What?! 5 days early lol. Then FeliCa gets yelled at. Ill let her explain that. Like I said Lots of crazy stuff. My heart is pounding right now. Still very tramatic for me. This puts me right back there.
All I have to say now is thank you cmh. For making my decision of home birth that much easier!
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